This weekend was filled with heart attacks, diabetic ketoacidosis, lacerations, and strokes. I worked in the emergency room Saturday AND Sunday. Not ideal to spend the weekend working [for no pay] but I made the most of it. I'm not going to lie, it was draining. Emotionally and physically.
Yesterday an older lady came in because she fell and hit her face on a dresser, resulting in a broken nose. We popped that sucker back into place then joked about her getting a "free" nose job in the ER. She gave me marriage advice and I just adored her. Then we ordered a head CT to make sure she had no broken bones. We got the report back from the radiologist who stated that a mass was seen at the top of her lung, which just happened to be seen in the head CT. Unsure of why she would have a lung mass, we ordered an abdominal CT. The results were heartbreaking. She has pancreatic cancer with metastasis to her lungs.
I immediately teared up, which "I'm not supposed to do". The ER doctor told me "you can't think and act clearly when you get attached to your patients". Well I'm sorry sir, but I wouldn't have it any other way. We broke the news to her and her response: "I can't be sad! God has given me a long and happy life and for that I am thankful!".
In a matter of minutes, we had changed her life and given her 6 months to live. How are you supposed to forget something like that? You aren't. You are supposed to learn and grow from it. These patients are the ones you remember 10 years down the road. They make your job incredibly sad but also remind me of why I went into medicine... To be a provider that cares. I believe that God is placing me in medicine to touch people's lives. I may not be the smartest PA there ever was, but there will be no shortage of compassion and love shown to my patients.
My #ootd... Stylish, I know
My early morning commute isn't so bad when I can watch the sunrise
Missed my 2 loves this weekend. Hardly got to see them at all! Love them so much
Sorry for getting all serious on this bloggy today, but it's where my heart was! Happy Monday pretty ladies!